the life.
so i thought, or always thought. the husband loved the wife. and they love the kids.u see the point here is, i always believed that the marriage was about the couple and not the kids.
the boyfriend, believed the wife and the kids were of equal importance, and he loved both. which kinda freaked me out big time. am still experiencing the tremors.
i wldnt want a marriage sustained because of the kids.
it just wldnt work.
how could be of equal importance to the ones i gave birth to.
it felt like part of me owed the love showered on me to them.
and i din want it to be that way.
i want to marry the man who loved me for me and would want to spend his life with me.
with me, and not the me because i was the woman he had his children with.
i would love my kids.
but shldnt i be loving the man more then them too.
you're spending ur life with me, and not the kids aint it.
yes they will be part of our lives, and we will love them.
but sumhow it feels now the marriage seems solely to be able to create them.
and im dreading such feelings.
i guess.
its hard.
to find the one who wants to spend his life loving u.
on a sidenote, i know the boyfriend loves me, i love him too.
mayb in a different way from wad i expected.
